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Embarking on a weight loss journey often feels like finding your way through a maze without a map. Countless programs promise quick fixes and leave many confused. However, our emotional weight loss program stands out from the crowd. It's not just another fad diet or trendy exercise program - it's a transformative experience. Read the true story of one of our users to find out first-hand how effective it can be.

Antje: 40 kg less and no more depression!

Dear Mrs. Herzog,

I would like to thank you. Since I met you one year ago, my life has changed completely for the better. I am so happy and glad that I even celebrate my birthday twice a year now, once on my actual birthday and once when I started living again—the day I went to your seminar. It's only been one year, but it seems like forever that I feel so good.

I think I was a pretty hopeless case. I was really exhausted and broken and beyond what you call life. Basically, I just existed, functioned, and vegetated. Today, I think I can say that I was very depressed.

The way I treated myself was really not good. I thought I was worthless, disgusting, an imposition on those around me, and stupid. I thought others were as disgusted with me as I was with myself. Every day, I wished I would die. I didn't know in the morning whether I would come home again in the evening and whether I would still be there in the morning. I had no positive feelings at all.

I started destroying things as a child and loved to get into fights. Then, I was fine for a short time as a 16-year-old. I lost a lot of weight and made friends again. I had real self-confidence and self-esteem. Unfortunately, that didn't last long.

When I was doing my internship, I was raped. I blamed myself because of the clothes I wore, that I had gone along, and that I should have fought more. I managed to hide it. Everyone thought I was fine. I did much better at school, I didn't have any more problems, and I lost a lot of weight at first. But I was anything but well.

At some point, I started hurting myself. At first, it was small things like tearing a wound open again and again; later, I scratched my arms with a razor blade, and when that wasn't enough, because I had run out of space, I scratched my legs. However, I have to say that I was always careful not to cut too deeply. It was enough for me to see the blood and feel the slight burning sensation, which was very pleasant for me at the time. I don't think it's bad. Back then, I needed it to feel something, to see that I was still there, and to get rid of the inner pressure. If I hadn't discovered this possibility back then, I probably wouldn't be alive today. The only disadvantage of scoring is that if you do it for a while, you must cut deeper to get blood. When there was nothing left, I did it under the soles of my feet and wore sneakers barefoot. This had the advantage that it burns longer as it sometimes becomes inflamed.

As I thought I was an imposition on my family and friends, I isolated myself more and more. And on the other hand, I didn't want people around me either. The only company I liked was animals, especially dogs. For a long time, I thought animals were better than people. I locked myself in my room and only came out for the essentials like school, eating, and going to the toilet. I sat in the dark with my blinds pulled down, watched TV, and ate anything that got in my way. My room had become a pigsty with tripping hazards.

Then, I hoped that everything would get better with my education, but it only got worse. I played my part, but inside I was dead. When my dog died, I was completely alone. I started feeling nothing, which was even worse than feeling bad. In order to feel anything at all, I started taking heroin. I couldn't take it the first time, but then I felt something good. I finally felt warm for a long time, and I could fall asleep. I knew it wasn't good for me, but I didn't care. It was more important for me to have the feeling.

When I passed my apprenticeship and moved back home, I was happy for once not to have any feelings because it was easy for me to come down from the stuff. Nobody noticed because I locked myself away. But I have to admit that I longed for that feeling for years. I spent many nights on the road, driving there and back and back and back, saying every time I was there, if you're at home and still want it, you're going back. It's only really been out of my head since I started having my own feelings again.

It was a terrible time, and I don't know if I could survive it again today. This absolute isolation, this gorging on everything that was somehow still edible, not being able to sleep properly at night, not being able to bear being touched, always being under constant power to recognize danger, calculating escape options in every building, trying to think what the other person wants to hear and anticipating what answers might come in order to be able to react to them. Anyone who doesn't go crazy or lose it has a really thick skin. It's really frightening.

Then, the turning point came.

The very first time I used the emotional weight loss training, I had a positive feeling. A real one and not a fake one. The first time I felt anything positive at all was with Harmony with the little moon. That's why it will always be something special for me.

I had forgotten that this feeling even existed. From then on I did emotional weight loss training every day and it was really successful. I lost about 5kg in the first month. I think it wasn't just the negative-positive scenes but also the Harmonys that were responsible for this. I felt something and it was positive and I no longer had to eat all the time. I felt better and better from day to day. I even started to socialise again and I liked it. Things also changed with my family as I no longer ostracised myself.

A month later, I started the Power of Emotions training. So far, I was feeling emotions again, but I didn't really know what they were and what I should do with them. My emotional state had already improved enormously. Now I was able to categorise my feelings, I knew what I was feeling and not just that I was feeling. My depression, which I think I had, had disappeared.

I still listen to my Harmonys every day and it has become an important part of my day. I savour and enjoy this time.

I no longer hear the negative-positive diet scenes, but I am still losing weight. I think my eating behavior has changed permanently. I eat what I want and stop when I'm full. Otherwise, I don't think about food. It doesn't interest me and is out of my head. I don't even eat my favorite foods or sweets when I'm not hungry. To date, I have lost around 40 kg without starving myself. My skin is completely fine. I enjoy exercise. I even need it. My metabolism has never worked as diligently as it has in the last year because I eat very well and enjoy eating.

I have developed a great relationship with my family. My depression has completely disappeared. There are also days when I don't feel so good, but then it's just a bad mood and no longer pure self-destruction. My nightmares have disappeared. My fear of spiders is also gone. I also no longer have other fears that I sometimes had. My need to control myself is also gone. I know what I'm doing and don't have to keep checking, e.g., doors, windows closed, or work I've done to ensure there isn't a mistake.

I can sleep wonderfully. My memory is better, I can remember things more quickly and easily. I can even remember names now, which used to be impossible. It doesn't bother me any more when I'm on further education courses, for example. Before I didn't write anything down or I wrote so indistinctly for fear of my neighbour seeing my spelling mistakes.

I have tons of energy at my disposal. My limit is higher. I've built a circle of friends and acquaintances and do many things. Today, I enjoy being alone and making myself comfortable on the couch. I am happy about so many little things others don't see because they take them for granted. For example, I am happy about nature when I go for a walk. Or when someone bakes me cookies or cake. Such "small" gestures are always really nice to me. I don't expect them, but I can accept them. I'm happy about it.

Apart from that, I have become very independent and self-confident, I know that I can rely on myself and that I can achieve what I set out to do. Professionally, I have achieved a lot that I can be proud of. My life is super nice, sometimes a bit too stressful but I love it and wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I am simply happy, content and in balance. People are friendlier and happier to me and I like it. Even a body that is still a little fat doesn't bother me.

I finally respect, accept, and love myself. I know I have a very good life ahead of me, and I still have much to do. Even my therapist, with whom I was treated for years. But she never had the chance to help me because I blocked out the changes. We ended the therapy, and she said that the treatment was not successful because I was a completely different person and no longer the person she used to know. She couldn't help me, but she's happy about how I'm doing now. Your program, Ms Herzog, gives people the chance to help or save themselves. Almost everyone should be given such an important opportunity. You (and I) have certainly saved my life, which I am very happy and grateful about. I hope that you can reach many more people and help them.

Kind Regards
Antje

An article by

Aleksandra Knebel

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